my friend ashley sent me this and told me it reminded her of how i loved you.
i’ve never felt a loss like this. when matt died, there was nothing i could do. i called him and listened to his voicemail, and i sent him texts and emails and messages and i knew there was nothing i could do because he was gone.
but you’re not gone. you’re living, breathing, in driving distance of me. you come to my school three times a week and we aren’t friends. your life is continuing and i am so happy but i am so sad
i want you to be happy and believe me when i say it makes me happy when i see that what i want is how you feel. but cooper it makes me sad, too.
i smile, but i am crying.
when i met you i was different and things didn’t affect me like this. people didn’t affect me like this.
you are one of the reasons i breathe, and i don’t even know you anymore.
imagine that? imagine loving someone so much it hurts you. imagine loving someone so much it kills you
HOLY BALLS I AM PUBLISHING THIS BC I NEED TO LOOK BACK AT THIS AND I NEED EVERYONE ELSE TO SEE THIS BC DREAMS DO COME TRUE